Still You know me…

To think that the God of the universe knows me.
Me, the small portion of the speck in the midst of the universe.
You and I are on His mind. You and I are on His mind, the mind that created the sun, moon and stars.

Even in our days that seem to go on without end,
When we feel as if our lives are a vast array of brokenness but yet the promise still remains,
He knows me.

Without fail, He comes to my rescue.
Without regard to the severity of the defeat, He loves me.
With an outstretched hand, He pulls me into His loving and infinite grasp.
With one spoken word, He parts the waters and allows me to find joy.
He still knows you and me.

When I feel as if my unworthy flesh is caving in, He whispers sweet and tender mercies.
He knows, He sees, He desires, He loves.
No matter the mess, the struggle, the failures, the regrets, the heartache, the pain…
My God, He stays the same.


Even in my mess, He sees me.
The me that longs for Him to know me.
The me that creates desires in my own heart that are of my own mind.
The me that fails to turn to Him in my darkest hour and in my brightest day.

Just to think that He, Yahweh, Jehovah God, Omnipotent Sustainer….
Knows me…



What am I worth?

Worth: A word that encompasses many meanings but fails to be a word agreed upon.

When I think of worth, the first thing that comes to mind is money. But, as I am finding out worth and money are two completely different concepts. Worth varies in its definition but money is clearly defined. This can compare to our view of our worth and God’s view of our worth.


I have been struggling the past few weeks with this concept. Due to past struggles, my mind jumps to why I am UN-worthy rather than worth of God’s love. God began to convict me immediately after my mind was filled with lies that I had created on my own. You see, my view of my own worth lies in what I have done or haven’t done; it is conditional. However, when God views my worth, He sees it as complete and indestructible. His view of my worth is unchanging where man’s view tends to be conditional. Christ established my worth on the cross despite my failures. So to Him, worth has no amount tied to it. It is simply highly valued regardless of my performance.

So in struggling with this, I have come to realize that when I begin to see my worth through the forgiving eyes of Jesus, I am made complete. I no longer have to worry about being worthy but see that to Him, I was worth His life. If you want to talk about the value of your worth, that is far greater than the concept of “value” itself. Christ chose this sacrifice willingly to allow us to visualize our worth in Him. It is through His sacrifice that we are made worthy.

God sees us not by our performance but in the belief that He is “worth” it all.

Christ does not call us to prove we are worthy but to accept our worth found only in Him.

Matthew 6:25-26

“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?

You are more than “worth” it.

His life, our feet

Today as I participated in the “One Day Without Shoes” campaign I was reminded of various instances in the Bible. The image that failed to leave me was that of Jesus on the walk to the hill of Calvary. As He walked the long walk to the cross, He didn’t focus on the simple fact that His body was worn or tired, what He focused on was you and me.

As I walked through the campus of my university making the simple statement of  bare feet, I imagined how it must have felt for Jesus to walk toward the cross knowing what was about to take place. This image is what brought me to tears today as I walked for what seemed like years this morning throughout the grounds of my campus. I began to realize that for me, it was a step out of my comfort zone to walk in public without wearing shoes. However, should that really be that difficult? Conviction started to fill my mind as I thought upon the mockers and judgmental crowd who watched Jesus carry my cross to the hill “far away”. What if Jesus would have worried about the way that people viewed Him carrying the cross or how He looked as He stumbled through the streets of Jerusalem that day? Would the outcome of the cross be the same?

Not just on a day where we raise awareness for the orphans that are without shoes but everyday we should rid ourselves of the fear of embarrassment from others. His feet were what carried Him to that hill where He breathed His last breath for you and for me. But yet, the fear of not being viewed by the world as “pleasing” causes us to worry. What we should be worrying about is if the world sees us as a reflection of themselves.

When I look upon the cross and the masterpiece that was displayed through the death of my Savior, the opinions of the world grow strangely dim. No longer do I worry what people will think of me but whether they see Jesus reflected in me.

So, this year as I walked through a “judgmental crowd,” I walked with a full heart and mindset that Jesus calls us to a life of faith, and not fear. When our minds are fixed on Jesus, our worldview becomes meaningless in the glorious display of the cross. For with Jesus, no circumstance is too difficult to overcome.

His life paid our debt so our feet would lead us on the path of righteousness. Therefore, we ought to not only give our feet to Jesus but our future and life as a sacrifice of praise to the One who deserves much more.

He gave His life for the faith journey of our feet.

follow you

The scary state of safety…

I recently had a conversation with a good friend of mine that has yet to leave my mind. In our conversation, we discussed what it feels like to feel “safe”. Yes, to the world safety is something that we all want to feel. However, in Christianity do we want to fee safe? Although there is no better feeling than resting in the safe and loving arms of Jesus, the state of being “safe” in our faith walk is a scary road to walk. As Christians, we strive to get out from beneath the trials and struggles and find peace. Most of the time, those trials and struggles bring with them pain, heartache, depression and most often sadness. However, we are promised that if we walk through the trials with Jesus, our faith will be made stronger!

Most of us have heard the promise of strength as children in old country churches but do we really believe Him when he says we will be made stronger in times of hardship? I can honestly say that growing up I knew the promise was true but it was when I began to face the trials that I started to hold on to the promise.

the struggle

We know that in our faith walk, growth results from trials we face. So, without trials our faith remains stagnant and comfortable. Then why do we complain when the trials do come? Don’t get me wrong, struggles are tough but if we hold onto the promise that when we are weak He is strong then the struggle becomes lighter to carry! Jesus takes our fear and weakness and turns it into triumph!

Throughout the past year, I have developed a fear of stagnancy. For I know that when I am stagnant, my faith remains the same. My stagnancy produces unavailability for Jesus to use me. When I feel myself getting comfortable in my relationship with Christ I start digging in His word and searching Him out! Now I’m at the point where feeling uncomfortable is what I long for! For it is in my discomfort that I know He is moving, moving me out of my comfort zone and toward His side. God doesn’t call us to be Christians of comfort. To be used by Him, we have to get up out of our comfortable lazy-boy recliners and ask the Lord to make us feel uncomfortable!

It’s time for the Redeemed to take hold of our Word filled with promises and trek through the hardships of life. Often I think of my journey with Jesus like a long scenic hike. Throughout the hike there may be difficulties and tiresome portions of the hike itself but the end view from the top of the mountain is always worth the hike.

We need to worry less about feeling safe and more about feeling secure in His promises. They aren’t empty promises but promises that endure forever!

It’s time for us to look struggles in the face and say “Bring it on!”

Let the discomfort come and the comfort be torn away.

21 Praise be to the Lord,
for he showed me the wonders of his love
when I was in a city under siege.
22 In my alarm I said,
“I am cut off from your sight!”
Yet you heard my cry for mercy
when I called to you for help.

23 Love the Lord, all his faithful people!
The Lord preserves those who are true to him,
but the proud he pays back in full.
24 Be strong and take heart,
all you who hope in the Lord.

(Psalm 31: 21-24)

Beauty through The Eyes

           I have been reflecting lately on the beauty of my Savior. We often talk about Him being beautiful but do we REALLY understand beauty? We use synonyms for the word beauty in our everyday conversations such as pretty, beautiful, lovely, etc…but how do we view our Savior as encompassing beauty? His beauty lost its significance in a world that struggles to define beauty or even attempt to define it as what is seen.

          According to the dictionary, beauty is “the quality present in a thing or person that gives intense pleasure or deep satisfaction to the mind, whether arising from sensory manifestations, a meaningful design or pattern or something else.” In today’s culture, I think many try to mold beauty into their own perception of what beauty looks like to them. However, the only thing wrong with that is EVERYTHING. Through human eyes, beauty is something that many strive for but cannot be attained because with beauty comes the word perfection. Perfection, cannot be obtained. So, in society, beauty is also unattainable. But for me, as I began to study beauty, God opened my eyes to see that beauty is not to be attained but it is something that I am! I already encompass my own true beauty! He is the beauty in me!

          Some days, through my eyes, my beauty is met with a wide range of conditions and seems far off from where I am. But, the amazing thing is God’s view of me is always beauty. You see, He made me in His own likeness and if He is beauty then He also has made me beautiful.


          In a book that I am currently reading for the second time, Captivated by Stasi and John Eldredge, John writes that “Beauty is, without question, the most essential and the most misunderstood of all of God’s qualities”-Wait…essential and misunderstood in the same sentence? If something is essential to who God is, then how can it also be misunderstood? The truth is that human eyes cannot comprehend the essential concept of beauty if they don’t realize where their beauty comes from and WHO it comes from.

          You see, our nature is to worry and stress over the concept of beauty but when we understand that in the eyes of our Creator we are beautiful, then our worry shifts to radiance. Again, when we see the beauty our Creator has bestowed upon us we can truly radiate our beauty.

As C.S. Lewis states,

          “We do not want merely to see beauty, though, God knows, even that is bounty enough. We want something else which can hardly be put into words-to be united with the beauty we see, to pass it on, to receive it into ourselves.”

          Lately, I have been realizing more and more of my beauty which is radiating on the inside that is waiting on me to take hold of it and radiate it on the outside. I want to be united with The Beauty. I want to pass it on and receive it into myself. Just as my God created me to be beauty, I want to give that beauty back to Him in a sacrificial way!

          I want to lavish in His beauty through His eyes and not my own.

Lord, let me see my beauty through the eyes of Beauty; You.